does it really matters when a woman strive a career than a man?

y does men always think tat women cant surpass them??? whenever a woman is rising up @ her career, man will always think tat women shouldnt do tat........ or they will actually says y should women give themselves stress & pressure.......

or myself, for those who understand me...... im kind of if i wanna do something - i will do it either perfectly or give in my very very best to it...... or i will jus chuck it one side, dun even bother to touch......

same goes to my work..... i really dun wish to jus work for the sake of working, for the sake of jus earning the salary, but i wan to strive my own career too.... a career tat really make me feel happy while working, stress, pressuring myself...... although is true tat i felt very very tired, after a long day work...... & need a good rest after the day..... but i really really enjoy wat im doing now..... or mayb till tis moment i really had the feeling of working, or mayb the past i am working for the sake of money & the sake of working...... but y man cant understand, but men always thought tat the whole world only they r the one who is tired & stress.....

so wat they r always the one outside striving for the family future???? now the woman doing for it too..... y they dun understand.......

mayb not all men r wat i mention above....

*PS - Men please dun feel offended if u r not the above!!!!

friends ard me...... did i change???? humans being changes like weather..... changes as they grow..... day by day..... they r not stupid to go back the old path...... they learn by lesson.....

*if a human being totured daily..... soon or later human will learn how to fight back.... unless human is tat stupid tat he willing to be tortured.... but not me...... once bitten twice shy..... and when bitten so many times by chances......

*enough of my nonsense le....... tk carez.... muackz.....

was on mc yesterday, but everything @ work crop up, i was supposed to sent mooncake down to Queensway sec sch to my 'client' but since i nv go work, then i actually requested terence to go down..... then i was supposed to meet my major client @ MIC for her dec's event, but luckily she did call office to confirm the appt, so was pickup by my 'Shi Fu', then she rush down to meet my client..... & still help me explain to my client y i was not there, saying i was sick.... haha.... then ard afernoon, starts having my gastric, i was in kind of pain for the 1st time of my life..... it was my 'virgin' gastric pain...... then i bought the antacid..... but there is no cure..... then i proceed to jurong point.... but guess wat i had for dinner..... for a gastric patient..... CURRY CHICKEN.... those who care abt me will surely jump @ me.... haha..... so i got the pain all the way till i slept @ ard 1030....can u imagine i was in pain for 5 hours..... like a mother giving birth.... in pain till cant even walk straight.... have to hunch my back.....

today went back to office.... OMG, things was like water flowing non-stop..... then i have to finish everything before 3pm, as i need to SPH news centre @ Toa Payoh..... it was a very newly setup centre..... nice envoiroment, but more importantly is to go there accomplish my task.... balloting booth for my next upcoming events..... it was my 1st time to attend this kind of balloting, & JO aka shi fu jus throw me there alone.... while i reached, called the salesperson to guide me there...... this events will be held @ Suntec Convention Hall @ 5th & 6th October, so there is only 32 participants, but i was the last to draw lots, not tat i never 'wash hands' is bcos we were taking standard package then have to let those who took platinium package to go 1st.....

called up a technician to service my new house TV attenna point.... my tenant complained she cant watch the tv, so i need to dig $$$$ out again..... the technician i called.... charge me $45 for jus CONFIGURATON, not changing any wires.... they really know how to 'chop' client..... but i was quite guilty for my tenant... so i paid for it.....

early in the morning recieve a msg from him saying he is downstair wanna fetch me to work..... then i went down, like strangers who dunno each other.... then while sending me to work, jus only asked me a question where to have breakfast, then we proceed to mac but still nothing to tok to me...... after breakfast i jus left him, so afternoon i msg whether he coming home anot.... he replied me to read email on his letter..... so so upset after reading it, then i request to have dinner outside....

so we have Michelle, Jackson, Terence & Derek to accompany me for dinner today.... then terence came MIC fetch me together with them.... then we proceed to Sakura @ Clementi....


they had so many OYSTER as appeitizer(YEks)


the COD Fish Fillet(wat a miserable amount)


compare to a prawn & baby octopus


terence playing with his OYSTER in his mouth


terence's hand made rose

hey guess wat i really found my PURSE..... i keep calling the 'JAC' today..... finally she answered my calls.... then 'she' seems to voice like man..... but curious enough to claims 'herself' who found my purse in LADIES..... so i was so curious to take a look @ 'her'..... went concourse to find paper bags for my rest. mooncake.... then look for crawlers(artifical plants) too.... then proceed to Aliwah Street thought can tk a look @ the toy caRS shop, but its too late.... they r closed for the day.....

then went to Bugis tk bus to marina square for dinner.....
was playing ard with my dessert when i cant finish.... it was actually chilled mango cream with sago & pomelo... so then is ice-cream inside then i was using the spoon to stir... while stiring it was spiraling the cream.... so artistic.... haha....



is plate cute?


so engrossed on something.....



time to sleep....zzZZZZzzzzZZZzzzZZZzZzZZZz

watched Forbidden Sirens yesterday @ Cineleisure yesterday after work.... not really a good movie.... after the movie, done something stupid to myself.... i lost my purse with my NRIC inside.... didnt reslise tat, was happily walking to PS from CIneleisure... then went to check G-MASK price, then when wanna go MRT station meet JJ then i realise i cant find my purse.... then bring my memory back to Cineleisure, is bcos after movie... we went toilet @ B1, then i took out tissue from my purse then jus left it there... wat the stupid me.... JJ came Cine look for me.... then we proceed to ESplanda.... tis the 3rd time of the week i went there..... i really enjoy sitting by the bay when the mood is down....

these few days.... i had poor appetite..... all my meals only completed by half.... then even very hungry, stomach growling, whenever i start eating, will stop halfway..... does it means when mood is down, depression will have poor appetite???

last night when i was @ esplanda, i had serious gastric pain...... but nothing i can do... as i really dun feel like eating.....

tis morning, daddy pass me a piece of paper.... noted a gal wanna me to call her on monday... she got my name but i do not know her... so i suspect she got my purse.... if its really the case.... will give her a treat... i really hope it is.....

today went sim lim square.... then bugis.... so tired.... dun get enough sleep....

MONDAY again.... starts my war again.........

have been very busy these few days.......... as villa raintree is launching soon..... so office was like in chaos..... running here n there have meeting n had everyone briefed abt the products......... but someone @ home seems dun understand my position n stress....... but its ok...... one day will understand..... on wed last min the lee get us to meeting, saying it was a short meeting from 4.30pm, but know wat.... actually last @ 8pm..... so me, jackson, michelle & derek.... thought of go Makansutra eat dinner cum supper.... so we walk to clarke quay to take bumboat down to Esplanda.......... n we chit chat till 1am.... hahaha..... and when i reach home.... i was all alone again..... i seems to be alone for many days.....

thurs is the launch of our Straits Times advert..... so we recieved alot of calls.... was so busy in the afternoon..... never even call me.... haiz.... was so tired running abt in the office answering calls.... then after work, went shopping @ marina square... i really need to explode.... i really need help.... pls....... pls stop torturing me....

hai.... he came home pack things n go........ wondering where he go........ never look @ him..... doubt he look @ me too...... dunno when will it ends…… I really dun dare to face the reality….. I dun wan to tok anymore….. I shall be mute to everything……… I really cant sleep……… have to control my tears during daytime……. Have to cry alone @ night……….

Please stop hurting & torturing my mentality………..

Depressness + Sadness = Depression

my bad habit is to cry out to relieve any kind of stress.... but i realise these few days.... cant even force myself to cry out...... will jus shed tears then no more........

last night went to KTV with the same group of colleague.... to relax..... througout the session willl still have images of him coming up whenever they sing the songs tat he likes to sing..... one of them sang (Yi Sheng Ai Ni Yi Ke) by ekin.... i was holding back.....

never call, msg or email.... so heartless.... both of us not giving in..... when will it last.... 3 days.... 1 week..... please dun be any longer..... tired..... tired of everything...........

y these few days my blog is getting more & more depressed..... so sad........ found myself getting weaker & weaker everyday.......

Saw this on Xia Xue's blog http://www.dumpalink.com/media/1148029464/Lost_Reality..._He_Said_She

i dun understand y human being have TEMPER/ANGER??????// and y when tired, hungry or busy will have temper?????? i really dun like the feeling of when i ask someone question, & the latter jus jolly well either smile back or jus look @ me(y must i ans u)..... WTF......... if u not happy to ans, then in e future, u will e living like hell, dun say i never tok to u or ask u question......... THE LATTER SHOULD KNOW WHO U R......

really sick & tired of life, stressed in work...... come home still have another stressss..... GOD.... can please give me a break....... i will collaspe anytime if this goes on...... i really dunno how long i can still go..... SUnny day, Rainy Day, even HEAVY STORM..... i really had enough........ y cant U understand my job scope....... is it true tat in tis world woman canot defeat man????? its so unfair....... i really tired........ Control???? (Tok too Much, say i noisy), (dun tok say i not concern, dun care), (Cry say i childish), in tis living hell.... wat can i still do..........

really dunno y i will write all the above......... i really need someone who can understand me.......... who can give support to me whenever i needed it........ i need a shoulder to cry on........ i need someone who had trust in me(not suspect me).... i dun wan any anger or temper to be on me......... ENOUGH.... really enough....... y should it happen on me???????



can someone really guide me......... thru the darkness....... i need light........ i really need guidance..........