hey guess wat i really found my PURSE..... i keep calling the 'JAC' today..... finally she answered my calls.... then 'she' seems to voice like man..... but curious enough to claims 'herself' who found my purse in LADIES..... so i was so curious to take a look @ 'her'..... went concourse to find paper bags for my rest. mooncake.... then look for crawlers(artifical plants) too.... then proceed to Aliwah Street thought can tk a look @ the toy caRS shop, but its too late.... they r closed for the day.....

then went to Bugis tk bus to marina square for dinner.....
was playing ard with my dessert when i cant finish.... it was actually chilled mango cream with sago & pomelo... so then is ice-cream inside then i was using the spoon to stir... while stiring it was spiraling the cream.... so artistic.... haha....



is plate cute?


so engrossed on something.....



time to sleep....zzZZZZzzzzZZZzzzZZZzZzZZZz

watched Forbidden Sirens yesterday @ Cineleisure yesterday after work.... not really a good movie.... after the movie, done something stupid to myself.... i lost my purse with my NRIC inside.... didnt reslise tat, was happily walking to PS from CIneleisure... then went to check G-MASK price, then when wanna go MRT station meet JJ then i realise i cant find my purse.... then bring my memory back to Cineleisure, is bcos after movie... we went toilet @ B1, then i took out tissue from my purse then jus left it there... wat the stupid me.... JJ came Cine look for me.... then we proceed to ESplanda.... tis the 3rd time of the week i went there..... i really enjoy sitting by the bay when the mood is down....

these few days.... i had poor appetite..... all my meals only completed by half.... then even very hungry, stomach growling, whenever i start eating, will stop halfway..... does it means when mood is down, depression will have poor appetite???

last night when i was @ esplanda, i had serious gastric pain...... but nothing i can do... as i really dun feel like eating.....

tis morning, daddy pass me a piece of paper.... noted a gal wanna me to call her on monday... she got my name but i do not know her... so i suspect she got my purse.... if its really the case.... will give her a treat... i really hope it is.....

today went sim lim square.... then bugis.... so tired.... dun get enough sleep....

MONDAY again.... starts my war again.........

have been very busy these few days.......... as villa raintree is launching soon..... so office was like in chaos..... running here n there have meeting n had everyone briefed abt the products......... but someone @ home seems dun understand my position n stress....... but its ok...... one day will understand..... on wed last min the lee get us to meeting, saying it was a short meeting from 4.30pm, but know wat.... actually last @ 8pm..... so me, jackson, michelle & derek.... thought of go Makansutra eat dinner cum supper.... so we walk to clarke quay to take bumboat down to Esplanda.......... n we chit chat till 1am.... hahaha..... and when i reach home.... i was all alone again..... i seems to be alone for many days.....

thurs is the launch of our Straits Times advert..... so we recieved alot of calls.... was so busy in the afternoon..... never even call me.... haiz.... was so tired running abt in the office answering calls.... then after work, went shopping @ marina square... i really need to explode.... i really need help.... pls....... pls stop torturing me....

hai.... he came home pack things n go........ wondering where he go........ never look @ him..... doubt he look @ me too...... dunno when will it ends…… I really dun dare to face the reality….. I dun wan to tok anymore….. I shall be mute to everything……… I really cant sleep……… have to control my tears during daytime……. Have to cry alone @ night……….

Please stop hurting & torturing my mentality………..

Depressness + Sadness = Depression

my bad habit is to cry out to relieve any kind of stress.... but i realise these few days.... cant even force myself to cry out...... will jus shed tears then no more........

last night went to KTV with the same group of colleague.... to relax..... througout the session willl still have images of him coming up whenever they sing the songs tat he likes to sing..... one of them sang (Yi Sheng Ai Ni Yi Ke) by ekin.... i was holding back.....

never call, msg or email.... so heartless.... both of us not giving in..... when will it last.... 3 days.... 1 week..... please dun be any longer..... tired..... tired of everything...........

y these few days my blog is getting more & more depressed..... so sad........ found myself getting weaker & weaker everyday.......

Saw this on Xia Xue's blog http://www.dumpalink.com/media/1148029464/Lost_Reality..._He_Said_She

i dun understand y human being have TEMPER/ANGER??????// and y when tired, hungry or busy will have temper?????? i really dun like the feeling of when i ask someone question, & the latter jus jolly well either smile back or jus look @ me(y must i ans u)..... WTF......... if u not happy to ans, then in e future, u will e living like hell, dun say i never tok to u or ask u question......... THE LATTER SHOULD KNOW WHO U R......

really sick & tired of life, stressed in work...... come home still have another stressss..... GOD.... can please give me a break....... i will collaspe anytime if this goes on...... i really dunno how long i can still go..... SUnny day, Rainy Day, even HEAVY STORM..... i really had enough........ y cant U understand my job scope....... is it true tat in tis world woman canot defeat man????? its so unfair....... i really tired........ Control???? (Tok too Much, say i noisy), (dun tok say i not concern, dun care), (Cry say i childish), in tis living hell.... wat can i still do..........

really dunno y i will write all the above......... i really need someone who can understand me.......... who can give support to me whenever i needed it........ i need a shoulder to cry on........ i need someone who had trust in me(not suspect me).... i dun wan any anger or temper to be on me......... ENOUGH.... really enough....... y should it happen on me???????



can someone really guide me......... thru the darkness....... i need light........ i really need guidance..........

hai.... after my previous post, things are still not settled.... we will still quarrel over small things..... and i'm sort of tired of this job..... but i can't do anything, as i just got my confirmation, quite satisfied with my increment.... but hai.... still very tired of everything... ard me....

thru last weekend, we meet calvin n gf to go esplanda jetty to view firework.... but heaven knows it was so CROWDED from marina square to the staircase to esplanda, me n hubby squeeze our way thru the human jam to jetty, finally found derek there, but to my disappointment, i'm too SHORT.... hahahahahaha..... wat derek always said... then i have to pull my neck long to c the firework.... after tat then we found each other(calvin n GF).... then had our dinner/supper?


after the weekend, my whole mind was on the DOPOD 818 Pro.... i wanna it for a long time, but these few months, we have so many debts to pay off, so we quarrel a few times on these, till he is tired to say anything, till he dun wish to say anything.... sorry my dear, i really dun mean it... but after all my hard work, i finally got my DOPOD 818 Pro... hahahaahahah... very happy, very very happy....

so now i was busy cracking my head to get used to this wonderful DOPOD....




oppsss.... forgotten abt my dear's birthday, he was born on the National Day's eve, then actually on tat afternoon we quarrel too.... but since is his birthday so we never blow it up, but he was unlucky cos he had to work OVERTIME, but tat can delay abit, so he fetch me to have dinner 1st, then we proceed to his office to finish up his work.... hahahahahaha.... the office only left 3 person including us.... so.. very quiet.... then we are in his office all alone.... but we nv do anything la... hahaha

hai... i was sick all thanks to derek, whole body ache, @ 1st dun wanna to come work on sat, but have to follow up with my client, so die die also drag myself here.... cos afraid derek nv come again, then nobody can help me... c eileen so RESPONSIBLE.... hahaha... go take good rest le......... god bless.......

i hate monday, we always quarrel on monday.... last night i left office quite late, then i proceed to clarke quay to settle some work then to PS to find my new tenant, then proceed to dinner, so it was only around 8pm then when i reach home i still have to meet uncle eric aka agent to pass him the cheque but when i reach home, i saw a black face saying y i was later than him..... UNFAIR.... MR Lee please get it clear... i'm not complaining to everybody, since we cant tok so i have to write....

i cant understand y woman have to tolerate other woman to tok to him, but y man cannot tolerate woman to have other man to work with her? is tis heaven's will for me to tolerate it but not being tolerate?


nowadays, my body is failing myself.... i dun really feel cold easily..... even was on bike speed 100kmh, i dun feel cold too.... but now i will SHIVER easily..... can anybody tell me y???? AM I SICK.... I HOPE SO.... SO I CAN DIE EARLY....

haiz.... wat a bad morning.... wanna go bank in cheque in the morning, but then realise the bank only opens @ 9.30am....

have to start work le.... take care.... i hate TO GO HOME....

wah.... i have not beenn blogging for so long.... almost 2 months le..... sorry.... no time, busy with work.. 'newborn'(flat).... life lor.... haiz.... dun even have time to go shopping..... everyday was like go war.... hahahaha.... dunnoe wat i was toking too.... so let me say all my story one by one....

Work

@ last i was CONFIRMED exactly after 3 mths, but i was not happy, after these 3 mths, i learnt lots & lots of things tat i never come over, but there is 1 thing tat i learnt is in this realistic world, fast learner is not actually a good advantage.... bcos when the company is short-handed... the fast learner will work the hell out of herself.... haha.... i was toking about myself.... but the benefit i got back isnt wat i wan..... hai....

@ 1st i got a bunch of close colleague... cos we r very noisy when chit-chatting during worktime till my manager always come in & sHHhhSSHHHhh........ hahaha... tat time was very fun tat i can laugh while coping with my stress.... but now almost everybody left... Celest, Jade, Huang Huang in my office room left... then still left JJ, Miranda, Derek, but now all left except Derek... haha... left both of us.... like tat how to survive....

last time my room used to be PA(Private Assistant) room, as celest is francis's PA, Jade to be Debbie's PA, then i be Jo's PA, but when the 2 of them left, i was 3 in 1, u should wat i mean.... hai.... so tired.... sometimes feel like quitting, but as times goes by... think i cant just left like tat, not bcos of the company, but my newborn... hey... eileen had grown up okay!!! haha.... learnt to be resposible of wat we have done....


Newborn aka New Flat
i was searching high & low for tenant... as we are both working & he still got night class.... so we can only bring tenant to view flat @ night.... so even i was so tired i also have to go.... hai.... seen many kind of different ppl..... really hate some kind of tenant.... especially MIC(ppl who know me well, will understand its meaning) hahaha...


LoveLife
my marriage life still going on smoothly, but not as nice as wat u guys saw on surface.... we used to quarrel alot... after marriage even more... haha... cos we have more things to settle.... housing bills, stressfullness, tiredness after work....

there's 1 thing i dun understand from MAN is NO TRUST.... they can either go out with friends or on course after work, but they canot tolerate their partner to do so... insist we must go home striaght after work... have to reach home earlier tat man, if not they will keep asking where u go, y dun wan to come home early.... hey, even my friends know i dun like to go home... i like to stay out.... but nowsadays, i become a home-gal..... if i go out after work must say reason... then there is no trust ma.... think i will be like before meh.... go out then wont come home ah.... tat was past wor.... hate the feeling being tied-up.... Married Woman also got freedom as Before okay....


Picture time.....

(taken with Tee Seen @ Zoo - ASA Dinner)


(during our KTV outing)








(While We Having ICe-cream Treat @ Hagen Diaz)




New Hairstyle & My New HAIRSTYLIST


(Taken on Miranda's LAst Day)